My secondary infertility story…

2 years since my last blog post… and we’ve had quite the journey! Giving Luna a sibling has been 100x harder than I ever imagined but here we are, we did it. And *spoiler alert* we gave her two! 

As I sit here right now… Bella (my cat!) is curled up on my lap, Daisy is asleep in her bouncer (we forgive her for the 5am wake up because she’s cute), Mike, Bluebell and Luna still asleep, and I’ve never felt so content, complete, and happy. Every day, I still wake up and pinch myself. Is this really my life? Everything I’ve ever wanted, my complete, beautiful family. I never want to forget this moment, and everything we’ve been through to get here… which is why I wanted to write another blog post. Mainly for me and to document the tiny details I might forget, but maybe it might help someone out there not feel so alone if they’re going through infertility struggles. After all, it was the time in my life I had never felt so alone. 

Rewind back to 2019… several months after I had given birth to Eden, it was Christmas time and myself & Mike were having a very belated honeymoon in New York! We spoke about trying again for a baby and agreed that we were ready… now just to wait and see. Luna was conceived on the second month of trying, and Eden took about 4 months so I wasn’t too worried. I knew my cycles were 34-38 days long (red flag, not that I knew it at the time) but I had fallen pregnant easily before so it was bound to happen again. That week in New York I was due my period… but I had a couple of spots, then nothing. Again, didn’t think much of it and enjoyed our trip. When it got to February 2020 I noticed I hadn’t had a period at all… in quite a while. I assumed (ha) I was pregnant… but nope, negative test. Being me, I wanted answers… I googled like crazy and came up with my own diagnosis - PCOS. It was quite the conclusion to come to so quickly, but all my symptoms tallied up and after many tests, I was right anyway. 

Then, of course, the whole world shut down. I got the last scan in March on the day before lockdown to confirm PCOS, and then had to wait. For the most impatient person in the world… that was hard! I felt guilty that I should have been so worried about COVID… when in fact, my mind was elsewhere. But, I did what I was told to do… stay in, keep distance etc etc… and was lucky enough that one of the first places to open back up were fertility clinics. We had to go private because of already having Luna. On the 11th of June 2020 I had my first consultation with the worlds most wonderful doctor, and was booked in for ovulation induction… I took my first Letrozole tablet on the 1st July 2020. Fast forward a year… and we had done 3 rounds with no success. I decided to give it one final try in August 2021, with the thought that if it didn’t work, we would move on to IUI or even IVF. The last round I wanted to combine with taking metformin, as I read this could make my ovaries more sensitive to the Letrozole… and I was more than right! On the 8th of September 2021 I had my usual follicle tracking scan… and on the screen… TWO beautiful follicles! The nurse said “ooh you might have twins!” I laughed and never thought I would be so lucky! 

Well, fast forward another year (and a bit), and we have our gorgeous 5 month old twin girls, Daisy and Bluebell. Their pregnancy was FAR from easy (but that will have to be another blog post in itself!) but they’re here, safe and healthy.

Our family is now complete and I’ve never been happier ❤️